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Starting at Square Two


Being a stay-at-home Nana has been a joy 99.999% of the time.  I wasn’t able to stay home with my daughters when they were little, so it’s been amazing watching Baby C unfold from a tiny preemie to a big boy.  However, as triumphant as watching each milestone was, there was part of me that had to hugely adjust to being home with a baby all day.  After all, my daughter’s schedule as a resident physician can only be described as grueling.  Her 16 hour a day shifts, coupled with my son-in-law’s odd work hours, often left me watching him for much longer than a traditional work day. Things happened that I didn’t imagine.  Any sort of routine or self-care schedule that I’d established basically became non-existent. I became a greasy haired, yoga pants wearing woman, in an oversized spit up covered tee-shirt.  My food plan of five small high protein meals per day dissolved to grabbing whatever seemed semi-edible from my fridge or pantry  Exercise, beyond walking and bouncing a wailing baby, went out the window, as did, reading, blogging, hanging out with friends, crafting and most things that I’d used as a substitute for overeating.  I began speaking fluent Sesame Street  (not a bad thing) and forgot how to have an interesting conversation. Though my snuggle and love ratio increased, my weight management plan rolled out the door like a trashcan full of dirty diapers and I gained weight; 35 pounds to be exact.

I’d committed to watching Baby C his first year of life, however finding just the right daycare didn’t happen until he turned 18 months old.  As soon as he began his first week there, I scanned my closet for something non-grubby to wear and went directly to my weight management physician and to the weight management trainers at the wellness center. Last week, I entered a comprehensive weight maintenance program and yesterday my weigh-in revealed a 4.5 pound weight loss! I’m proud of making progress and even prouder that I’m catching myself before my weight spirals too out of control.  Having to lose 30.5 pounds sure seems more doable than my previous goal of nearly 100 pounds.  Fortunately, instead of starting at square one, I’ve glided on to square two!

Life is a constant recalibration to find the perfect balance. I’m still spending plenty of time with my awesome grandson, but it’s more quality than quantity.  I’m back to making glass art that’s more intricate than before. I’m back to having time to nurture my relationship with my husband and friends.  I’m also back to posting on WordPress and, oh-so-hopefully reconnecting with the wonderful friends I’ve made on here over the years!

So, friends, how have you been? 🙂 



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This Little Person

There’s a little person gently snoring in the little bed beside of mine.

He’s on his side with his arms flung wild and his perfect mouth so still that I can trace the tiny cupid’s bow just like his mother’s.

Fingers wiggle at the end of chubby arms as if he’s conducting a symphony in his dreams.

How is it that fraught with lack of sleep I can’t close my eyes to this little mystery?

The tiny up-and-down of his chest, the scent of his hair, his button nose, so like mine, are all things I must drink in, I must record, I must never forget.

Sleep, sweet baby, and I will watch in fascination.


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I’d Fight a Zombie for You


Last year, on December 16th, I attended an informational meeting about Optifast at our hospital’s bariatric center.  I was nearly 230 pounds and physically miserable.  My health was on a downward spiral of pre-diabetes, high blood pressure, asthma, sleep apnea, depression, and limited mobility.   My spirit was in even worse shape.  In fact, shortly before my first bariatric visit, a silly family conversation about the Zombie Apocalypse* turned pretty serious as each family member was discussing their special skill in defeating the undead.  My husband’s years in the Army have given him amazing survival skills, coupled with a sniper-like aim with any weapon available.  My younger daughter is super fast, fearless, and strong. Her fiancé is resourceful and also an expert in survival and weaponry.  My oldest daughter is cunning, has expert medical skills, and extremely resilient, and her husband is wily, quick and strong.  After talking out a few scenarios that slayed more than a slew of zombies, my family turned to me,

“What would you do Mom?” my oldest asked.

“I’m fat,”  I replied, “I’d be your diversion.”

With that, their happy conversation ceased and I spent the next hour, promising them that I would get healthy.

Fast forward to yesterday.  My oldest I were happily dancing around the kitchen to holiday music with a few twerking songs thrown in, when she reminded me of last year’s Zombie Apocalypse conversation.

“What would you do now, Mom?” she questioned **

I answered with a high, karate-style kick that finished just inches from her head.

“I’d kick their asses!,” I replied with a smile.

With just one year of extremely hard work, I’ve gone from a Zombie’s holiday meal, to the undead’s worst enemy.  I’m nearly 100 pounds lighter, am no longer pre-diabetic, no longer have sleep apnea, depression, or high blood pressure.  My asthma medication has been cut in half, and I’m physically fit. I’ve met new, wonderful people through my gym and this blog.  I don’t fear life anymore, and I’m certainly not afraid of a few zombies!

I feel so immensely blessed this wonderful holiday season. I’m thankful for the love of my friends and family, for my health, and for all of the caring, sweet people that I’ve met here on WordPress.  I feel like I know all of you as friends and wish you all the happiest and healthiest of holidays! ❤ ❤ ❤


*Something that people who have years of advanced education tend to do, along with lengthy discussions of Star Wars, Star Trek, and other various super cool subjects!

**Once again, her extreme coolness coming out.


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Bathing Suit Shopping Suggestions, Weigh In, & Food!

This is almost exactly not what I look like in a bathing suit! :)
This is almost exactly not what I look like in a bathing suit! 🙂

Today, was my aquatics class. My trainer started me with power water walking last week.  It’s really enjoyable and a terrific workout.  To power water walk, you wear a flotation belt around your waist, in order to keep you afloat, while making an exaggerated walking motion through the water.  This week, while swimming and water walking, I’ve noticed that my bathing suit, that was once so tight that I had to mercilessly tug to get it on, is becoming WAY too loose.  While this is fantastic news in the weight loss department, it’s terrible news in the accidental exposure department.  My straps are not wanting to stay up.  I shopped around a bit today, both in stores and online, and haven’t had any luck.  Anyone know of any good places to find a cute, supportive bathing suit that has nice coverage?

In other news, I lost 3 more pounds!! 🙂  In other, other news, my bariatric doctor gave me permission to eat a bit of food this Saturday for my birthday party (my real birthday is on Monday).  For weeks and weeks, I’ve been craving raw vegetables and humus, and I’m allowed to have one cup of veggies and two tablespoons of humus.  I’m so happy that my cravings have been consistently for healthy foods.  I hope it always stays that way!

I hope all of my blogging buddies are having a fabulous week! 🙂  I’m sending good thoughts to everyone! 🙂


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Wisdom Wednesday: The Wisdom of Appreciation

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This week’s Wisdom Wednesday post is happily brought to you by me!  I’ve had such a busy week that I wasn’t quite certain what to write about. Then my husband came home from work in a slightly grumpy mood last night, and I had to remind him of all of the things that I appreciate about our home and our life together.


images6XXWIJABMy husband works in one of the wealthiest counties in the country.  Every morning,as he winds his way to his office, he passes rolling horse farms, polo fields, and sprawling multi-million dollar homes.  Every evening, as he makes his way home, he departs the majesty of wealth and enters back into the dingier world of middle and lower class mediocrity.  He pulls his sensibly priced commuter car into garage-less  driveway and walks up three unadorned steps to our front door where I usually greet him with a hug and kiss.  The house he enters smells of dinner cooking and fresh laundry. It’s warmly lit and comfortably decorated  One cat is sleeping on a chair by the front door and the other is curled in his seat as if keeping it warm for his arrival.

Sometimes his day has been good, while other times it’s been filled with a strife that only dealing with the entitled public can bring.  It’s on those days that he apologizes for our small house and our crowded life.  It’s those days that he insists that I should be living in a house big enough to get lost in; with a pool and a fireplace, and a bathroom for every kid.  I reject his apology and deny my desire for the extras that my wealthier counterparts a few dozen miles away may have.  I’ve lived in far smaller places without heat, functioning appliances, or even the smallest patch of yard to call my own.  I’ve lived without a working car, enough food in my refrigerator, and without enough money to  buy a new coat when my old one was falling apart and the winds were howling.  Worst of all, I’ve lived without the very  thing that my 1,100 square foot home encapsulates; love, family,and security.

I remind my husband that I say a prayer of appreciation every time I load my dishwasher, or do a load of laundry. I remind him that when icy winds blow that our little place stays warm and snug.  I remind him that I brim with delight when I sit on the backyard swing with the sun in my face and my toes in the grass. I remind him of the birthdays, anniversaries, and milestones that we’ve  shared under our tiny roof.  And finally, I remind him that this is the place that I wait for him to come home to me in.  I don’t need bigger, better, fancier, or more elegant; I appreciate the home I have, and the life and love that I have in it!


What are you most appreciative of? 

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Days 34 & 35: Thankfulness

It’s finally happened!  I saw him!  The seasonal celebrity that I’ve been waiting for was posing sprightly on a four-foot pile of snow right in MY front yard this morning.  No, it wasn’t Hugh Jackman, because it’s scientifically proven that his mere presence near snow would cause instantaneous melting! 😉 It was none other than the jaunty little messenger of Spring; the Robin.  I ran to get my phone to snap a photo, but alas he had taken his flight before my return.  Yet, still, I saw him with my own, two winter-weary eyes, and for this I am deeply thankful.

Not the original little dude that I saw this morning, but perhaps this is one of his cousins!  (Photo by Sujit kumar courtesy of Wikimedia Commons
Not the original little dude that I saw this morning, but perhaps this is one of his cousins! (Photo by Sujit kumar courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

I’m genuinely thankful for lots of other things, too.

  • The ever-abiding love and support of my husband and children
  • The sisterly love of my best friend who has been everything a perfect friend could be to me (even when I haven’t been perfect) for most of my life
  • My cats, who make me laugh every single day
  • The health and happiness of myself and my loved ones
  •  The appliances that make my life easier (sounds silly, but I lived in an apartment for many years without a washer and dryer or dishwasher)
  •  Shakes to drink :), books to read, art to appreciate, a house to clean
  • The ability and desire to seek joy and help others
  • Conversation, laughter and connectedness
  • Hot tea and good blogs to read
  • Having a heart too full and a page too short to list everything that I’m thankful for! 🙂

What are you most thankful for on this beautiful day? 

(By the way, it’s my weigh-in day.  I’ll post my progress this evening after my appointment.  Wish me luck!)   I’m sorry, I almost forgot to update!  I lost 3 more pounds!!  🙂