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Goodbye, Sweet Sugar and Thoughts on a New Year

The clock is ticking!  What are your New Year's goals? (Photo by me "The Hugo Clock" @ MOMA)
The clock is ticking! What are your New Year’s goals? (Photo by me “The Hugo Clock” @ MOMA

Stevia-laced coffee and a healthy bowl of Fiber One cereal; this is my usual morning.  However for the past three wake-ups, holiday elves (let’s blame it on them) have been treating me to slices of pie or Christmas cookies and a lovely coffee topped with whipped cream.  Those silly “elves” have also been sabotaging my other meals, too, and “forcing” me to eat Christmas dinner leftovers.  Yesterday, I called their bluff and took the leftovers to my daughter’s house.

The good news is, that three days of feasting hasn’t taken much of a toll on my progress or success.  I decided to not give myself any restrictions this holiday.  Restrictions make you feel like you’ve failed when a sugar cookie “accidentally falls into your mouth.  Truth be told, given carte blanche in the kitchen actually helped me this season.  I can’t pack it in like I used to, and didn’t really end up eating the copious amounts of food that I thought I would.  It takes the consumption of 3,500 calories to gain a pound.  Fortunately, a health metabolism burns those calories, and as of this morning, I only weigh 133 lbs.  Holiday victory is still mine!

Today, it’s back to the gym and “so long” to sugar!  Will I indulge on New Year’s Eve?  Of course!

Speaking of New Year’s, I began working on my new list of goals for 2015 last night.  2014 was such an amazing year that I expect 2015 to be even better!  So far, I hope to:

  • Find an awesome job
  • Rid myself of debt
  • Get  physically stronger
  • Create my crafting business

So what about you, dear readers?  Did you thoroughly enjoy your holiday treats?  Have you made any goals for 2015?  Tell me about it! 🙂

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Changes are Coming my Way!

Guess What I’ve Been Eating?

This past weekend in New York, at my doctor’s suggestion, to avoid carrying around a cooler of shakes , I ate a small amount of real food for both lunch and dinner. I actually had no difficulty finding healthy food in Manhattan, as there seem to be places serving fresh, organic fare at every turn. From our last trip to the Museum of Modern Art, I knew that the Terrace Café on the 5th floor had some great healthy choices.  For lunch, I had the Miso Salad, sans dressing, with thinly sliced, grilled beef medallions, cucumbers, avocado, tomatoes, and radishes topping a bed of fresh arugula.  We also ordered an appetizer of Lemon Hummus served with a thin, crispy flatbread.

The avocado was to die for! (Photo by me)
The avocado was to die for! (Photo by me)

Of course, with a shrunken stomach, after four months of nothing but Optifast shakes, I certainly wasn’t able to chow down on the entire salad, but I did manage two pieces of beef and avocado, as well as about a cup of the other veggies.  I also had a teaspoon of the delicious lemon hummus.

After lunch, I had a refreshing cup of Mighty Leaf Tea’s,  Marrakesh Mint for dessert. This tea isn’t available in my area, and I’d never tried it.  The funny thing is,  when I ghost blogged for the organic restaurant, I had to do an entire post on this brand.  (This is why I’m always wary of the blogs of businesses! :))

My husband chose our dinner spot based on our pickup location. Harrington’s Bar and Grill on 31st Street. My choices here were a bit more limited, but it was pouring rain and really chilly, so I was very content to be inside. After much consideration, I chose the grilled herbed salmon salad. It feature grilled, sliced salmon on a bed of romaine, with tomatoes, cucumbers and red and green peppers. I ate one of the small pieces of salmon and about a cup of vegetables.  My salmon loving husband and daughter gladly polished of the rest of the salad for me.

My Grilled Salmon Salad.  The tomatoes were delish!  That's my daughter's grilled veggie sandwich in the background. (Photo by me)
My Grilled Salmon Salad. The tomatoes were delish! That’s my daughter’s grilled veggie sandwich in the background. (Photo by me)

Weight Loss News

I lost a whopping 2.8 pounds at Wednesday’s weigh-in! After a quick high-five celebration from my doctor and nurse, my doctor said she’s ready for me to start making the transition back to food.  This week I’ll be having 4 oz. of lean protein with 1-2 cups of non-starchy vegetables for one of my meals.  I ‘ll still be drinking my shakes, but I’ll have four instead of five. Instead of doing another 9 weeks of Optifast, after this 9 weeks ends in June, I’ll be switching  to a program  called  Weight  Wise.  I’ll have 2 balanced meals and 1 snack of regular food with 2 Optifast shakes per day.  I’ll stay on this plan for two months, seeing my doctor bi-weekly, and the behavior modification specialist the other two weeks of the month.  Then, if I still have more weight to lose, I’ll do another 9 week round of Optifast. At this point, I have 33 more pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight.  By switching up my program, my body won’t become complacent with Optifast.

It’s funny how my relationship with food had changed.  Being back on it, isn’t as thrilling as I’d imagined it would be months ago. I think it has a lot to do with having so many more things in my life to look forward to other than just a meal.  My weight loss has caused me to become more involved with activities and people and those are the things I’m enjoying more. Food is lovely, but it’s just the fuel that gives me the energy I need to embrace life.


I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend with pretty weather~ It’s actually going to be in the high 60s here!  Hooray! 🙂 Anyone have exciting weekend plans?

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Day 20: Hey weight! You don’t know me!

Why are we judged by our bodies?  What does your weight say for you? (Photo by mallinaltzin Wikimedia Commons)
Why are we judged by our bodies? What does your weight say for you? (Photo by mallinaltzin Wikimedia Commons)

Yesterday, I blogged about journaling.  One of the suggested prompts was to write about what your weight says or does for you.  After a comment from Maria, from Still Times, I knew I had to address this question , so here goes:

My weight speaks to me and for me. It says terrible things.

To others it’s a first impression that outweighs the myriad of things that I have going for me.

To those who don’t know my skills or ambition it might say, “Don’t give her a chance. Choose the thinner one.”

To those who don’t know my strength, it’s a flashing signal, a blaring siren, a grating alarm that makes people think, “This woman is NOT in control of her life!”

To those who don’t know my sensitivity it whispers, “She’d be pretty, if she’d lose about 80 pounds.

To those who don’t know my kindness, it hisses, “Why is SHE ordering dessert?”

It berates and barrages me with:

 “Don’t post your picture on Facebook; they’ll all see how fat you are.

Stay away from your high school reunion, you’ll be a laughingstock.

Why don’t you look like other professional women your age?

You look terrible in that outfit!

 Why can’t you change?

Try harder; be perfect; you have more to prove because of me!”

My weight is a dick.

It makes me tired, unhealthy, and under confident.

It reminds me on a daily basis that I’m inferior; but I only listen for a little while, because I know my weight lies to me. I know its origins.

It’s more than hand-to-mouth; more than habit or hunger.

My weight is born of grief, hurt, fear and anxiety.

The death of my mother,

The illness of a child, and

The terror that it could happen again.

There are things that I need to let go of; things I need to accept; layers that I need to peel away with diet and exercise and connections and trust.

I’ll leave it speechless as I conquer myself and change the things that I allow it to tell me.

Today is my weigh-in day, so I’ll briefly report my progress when I get home from the doctor. 

     What do you think your weight conveys about you to yourself and others?

****Back from the Doc—I lost two pounds.  I wish it was five, but at least I didn’t gain anything! 🙂

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Day 12: Fat Chick Blogs for Organic Restaurant

This could be my hand reaching for those delicious, organic tomatoes! (Photo by  Alanthebox Wikimedia Commons)
This could be my hand reaching for those delicious, organic tomatoes! (Photo by Alanthebox Wikimedia Commons)

Last year, I helped an overwhelmed friend out by doing some writing for her public relations firm.  One of my jobs was blogging for several of her client’s businesses; acting as a “ghost blogger” so to speak.  The really intriguing thing about entering the spirit world of blogging is that you have to write in the “voice” of the business owner.  It’s no surprise that my favorite business to blog for was a pricey organic restaurant that I’d actually never been to, due to the fact that it’s located nearly six hours away.  Because I’d never actually met the owner, whose persona I was to occupy, I was forced to rely on her website bio, and three previous blogs that she’d written.

From her expertly staged picture, I could see that Ana, was a little sprite of woman who was the embodiment of healthy living; sleek, shiny blond hair, flawless skin, and an impeccably toned body.  She looked exactly like I would if I laid off the donuts and exercised ten hours a day.  Her bio told me that she was a world traveler, an avid skier and mountain biker, and that she and her husband had just returned from a wine tasting tour of Italy.  I hated her and love her all at the same time.

Envy aside, I soon fell in to her character as I researched, did phone interviews, and wrote about the different vendors and events associated with her restaurant.  I wrote as if I personally knew the man who grew and  snipped each leaf of organic lettuce from his local, sustainable greenhouse.  I penned tales of  exclusive, sold-out, culinary events just like I’d been there in my little black dress sipping a thoughtfully crafted TenutaDi Arceno.

For nearly a year, I wrote and lived vicariously through Ana and she raved to my friend about the quality of my posts.  Little did she know that sometimes my keyboard was tainted with Doritos dust.

My bank account may  never allow me to live the lifestyle of Ana. I’m a literal wreck on skies and wine gives me hot flashes, but if I work hard enough I can achieve a healthier fitness level and much better eating habits.  That’s good enough for me!

Have you ever wanted to be like someone else?  Who?  Tell me about it in the comment’s section. 🙂