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Like an Onion

Shrek and Donkey are property of DreamWorks Entertainment
Shrek and Donkey are property of DreamWorks Entertainment

Lately, the movie Shrek has been on my mind.  Not the whole movie, just the part where Shrek tells Donkey, in so many words. that “ogres are like onions, they have layers.” Shrek’s simple description of the complex stratum of his personality has felt quite apropos as of late, since I’ve been feeling fairly “oniony” myself.  (Please note that I said “feeling,” not “smelling”–I smell quite nice, according to my husband!)  The truth is, for many years, I was shrouded in a fairly ample “layer” of about 95 unneeded pounds (the size of your average 6th grader) of body fat.  That layer was so many things for me; my shield, my shame, my hiding place, my most loyal friend and my greatest enemy.  This bittersweet layer that was both my comfort and downfall was a  difficult one to let go of, both in terms of the hard work it’s required and in the anxiety of becoming a different person.

Now that I’m this new, shining, fit and healthy woman, nearly everything about my life is different. With my physically largest layer gone, I don’t take up as much space, but I feel like I have a more massive presence in my world.  With my anxieties managed, I see my future laced in possibilities, activities, and adventures.  Most importantly, without my mind obsessively thinking about my worries, and what I’ll eat to mask them, I’m capable of immersing myself in deeper thoughts and aspirations.  This has put me in a new state of “layer exploration.”

Call it a midlife crisis (the good kind without extramarital affairs or fast cars), but I have new interests and ways that I want to improve myself in order to have the happiest, most fulfilled and balanced life possible.  This notion brings me to my blog.  As you may have read, I’m in the maintenance phase of my weight loss program.  I’ve had calories added to my diet to halt my weight loss and allow me to stay at my target weight through eating properly and continued physical activity.  Keeping my weight off will always be a measure of work, but I’ve been given a manageable formula for doing so.  This is a topic that I will frequently write about, but I’d like to delve into other layers with deeper subjects like core beliefs, spirituality, and self-actualization.  I think with this new phase of my weight loss program, my blog needs some updating, and maybe even a name change.  What do you, my readers think?   Would you like to explore more topics along with me?  Want to join me in my positive mid-life crisis?    Let me know in the surveys and in your comments.





20 thoughts on “Like an Onion”

  1. I’m there, no matter what you do! Getting to goal and staying there can be a daunting task. Not much is spoken about that phase of the journey. Congratulations on your success thus far. I’m looking forward to your continued journey.

    1. Thank you, Rob! I’ve been doing a lot of writing, but not as much posting because some of what I was writing didn’t seem to go with my blogs theme. I’m pretty excited with thinking about redoing things! Thanks for sticking with me! 🙂

  2. I think the blog should evolve to keep up with your latest path…otherwise it is no longer a helpful, motivating tool. I almost ditched my own blog entirely during a three month long burst of ambivalence towards it. Burst is undoubtedly the wrong word… But the main point is that the blog pulls you forward some days, if it is crafted to do so.

    Also, I am so proud of your spectacular success in the first phase of your journey. I cannot wait to see where we go next! You have my undying love and support, where ever we go…

    1. And you know you always have my undying love and support, as well! This life we have is so exciting! I just want to enjoy every moment of it to the fullest. I’m glad you’re writing again! I plan to get into the same habit! 🙂

      1. I’ve been a lazy blogger lately, but I haven’t felt like I’ve had much that’s all that exciting to write about! I’ve been doing well though, and reading blogs–just not writing much! 🙂

  3. I’m all for exploring more topics – go for it! I don’t see a need to change the name though. I kinda like it. And congrats on making it to your target weight!

    As I read your post, I was thinking about my husband. He’s been overweight for quite some time, not as much as you were if I am reading you correctly, but enough to cause him medical issues. About a month ago, he started working out on the treadmill 45 minutes to 1 1/2 hours a day, nearly every day. He cut out chocolate some time before that. He started eating a lot of fresh vegetables and cutting down portions. He’s now lost something like 20 pounds and it’s still falling. When I look at him, I’m amazed. The love handles are gone. His legs are noticeably slimmer. There’s less to hug. It’s really becoming noticeable. I like your image of having lost a layer! (Now I need to get my act together since I’m no longer the healthier of the two of us! lol)

    1. Thank you so much for your sweet words!
      That’s wonderful that your husband is making some healthy changes in his lifestyle and diet. It’s funny how men tend to lose weight so quickly in comparison to us girls! Perhaps he could send some motivation to my hubby!! He has only healthy food here to eat and I get him to the gym with me on the weekends, but I fear he’s sneaking Slim Jim’s and McDonald’s when we’re not looking! He’s 8 years older than me, and I really worry about his health.
      I’m sure your act is together! 🙂 Thanks for visiting! 🙂

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