I had my monthly weigh-in with the bariatric doctor yesterday. This month I’ve lost a total of 5.5 pounds. I’m getting very close to my original goal; so close that I’m actually only one pound away! However, I’d like to lose a total of six pounds to be at 140. These last pounds are dissolving pretty slowly, but the good news is that I have all the time in the world to get rid of them.
In other news, I’m really struggling with hunger this week. It’s right before my period (sorry for the TMI, guys) and I feel like I want to devour everything in sight. I had to grocery shop today, and I almost began crying in the car on the way home, knowing that I had to make dinner for my family. Sometimes I feel like an alcoholic sentenced to a life of bartending when it comes to being around and preparing food. Luckily, my oldest daughter pitched in and helped me by doing the side dishes while I grilled chicken. On days like today, I feel like the only way I can control my desire for copious amounts of food is to have only the blandest items in my house, and to only cook for myself–not the most realistic of solutions.
Though I’m fantastically happy with my healthier body and lifestyle, yesterday was just one of those days that I wanted to sit on the sofa with a pint of Ben & Jerry’s and a bag of chips while watching trash television. Today, I’m proud that I didn’t give in to yesterday’s desires. I worked out at for 90 minutes and made healthy food choices. I’m slowly learning that I don’t have to give in to my cravings and desires, but I also don’t have to stifle them. Feelings are there for a reason and slathering them with poor food choices and a sedentary lifestyle won’t make them go away. I’m equally proud of myself for asking for help yesterday, and proud of my daughter and son-in-law for happily giving it to me. At 50, I think it’s time that I learn to ask for help when I need it, rather than always attempting to be general manager of the universe! The one craving that I did succumb to yesterday was the trash TV. However, I drank plain mint tea as I watched the inane antics of the girls on MTV’s Teen Mom 2. At least my love of television garbage is a calorie-free vice!
How do you deal with cravings? Do you feel accomplished at asking for what you need? Tell me about it. 🙂