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Good News Mixed with Soggy Waiting

"Does this car make my penis look too big?" (Photo from askmen.com)
“Does this car make my penis look too big?” (Photo from askmen.com)

I just got the call from my doctor’s office that my endometrial biopsy was normal!  Yay!! The ultrasound that I had yesterday, was also void of anything horrible, other than an ovarian cyst, which nicely explains the pain in my lower left quadrant that I’ve been having.  The good news is, that it should resolve itself.  Now with no signs of cancer, I’m just waiting on my surgery scheduling and the results of the blood work that I had last Thursday to measure my hormone levels. I’m more than certain that my hormones are fully off track.  I spent all day yesterday fighting back tears and finally allowed the dam to break once my husband got home.  This is so, so, so not like me, but everything, including sentimental television commercials, has me feeling sappy and weepy.

Today, I’m seemingly recovered from my sadness, but am punished with swollen eyes and a slight headache that always seems to accompany crying.  My husband IS, without a doubt, the sweetest, most loving man on the planet.  He took me for a drive in “the country” (meaning some back roads in our suburban sprawl) while I boo-hooed about everything from missing my mother to wanting massive quantities of frozen yogurt, to being frustrated with where I am in life.  Like I said, this isn’t like me.  I’m so often the comforter, not the one needing comfort.

Luckily, the sun, my best girlfriend, and the pool are beckoning me today, as is the possibility of visiting Starbucks with her.  It’s difficult to be melancholy knowing that I’m fortunate enough to have such good things in my life. Yet, I still wish that mid-life for women just consisted only of the undying urge to buy a sports car, get a toupee/wig, and flirt with younger guys–instead of menopause! Trouble is, I’m far from balding, I love my husband, and I’ve never been taught to drive a manual transmission!!

 

Hope everyone has a sunny, gorgeous day!

 

21 thoughts on “Good News Mixed with Soggy Waiting”

  1. Now I have paranoia about driving my car. 🙂 Yay for the news! That has to be a load off of your mind. I find that the comforter/comforted roles vascilate back in forth over time. It’s great that your husband and you can both play that role. I hope that the sun and pool was fun!!!

    1. A sports car, eh? I knew that nice head of hair in your avatar just had to be a toupee!!! 🙂
      My husband is wonderfully comforting. In fact, when he takes me for drives, we go UFO hunting, while we talk. Last night yielded no space crafts, but you never know!
      We had a blast in the pool today, although we’re in the midst of a heat wave and didn’t get in until after 4:00. 🙂 Thank you for your kind words! 🙂

  2. I gotta beg to differ a little with your assessment of male mid life crisis. Im sure not all males go through it but I for one am sure I’m goin’ through “Manopause”. I don’t desire a little sporty car, unless its a convertible whereas I can ride in the passenger seat with the wind blowin’ over my nearly bald head, tryin’ to cool off from what I am certain is a hot flash. I no longer have the energy to flirt with younger girls, or any girls at the moment, unless of course they initiate said flirting, then the burden of flirt is on their shoulders and I can just sit back and enjoy. However, I am so happy for you that everything has turned out OK and I hope you have/had a wonderful time with your friend, the pool and Starbuck’s today 😀

    1. 🙂 I was totally joking! 🙂 I love it; manopause! That’s so funny! Here’s to hoping a whole slew of very nice, pretty ladies initiate some good flirting with you, so you can sit back and enjoy! 🙂
      I did have a very nice day today. Hanging with my best friend always makes my spirits soar.

    1. You’re so right! Sometimes it’s tough being a girl! 🙂 I’m very relieved to have had good news about the biopsy and ultrasound. However, I got a call late afternoon from the nurse saying that my blood work was inconsistent with menopause. I have to call in the morning for an appointment. I have a mystery going on. I’m wondering if my weight loss has anything to do with this. I’m just eager to get it all figured out! 🙂

      1. Once my daughter got home last night she gave me a better explanation. I think the nurse confused me by saying “inconsistent with menopause.” They were looking for certain hormones present in my blood that would have shown that I was in menopause. My hormone levels showed that I’m not officially in menopause (which would make sense because I’m still having periods). My symptoms are premenopausal. My daughter said it would be more concerning if I was having heavy bleeding, but blood work showed that I was in menopause–because I shouldn’t be having a period with that.
        I’m calling for my appointment once the doctor’s office is open. 🙂

    1. I will! I’m supposed to call my doc in the morning for an appointment because, I found out late this afternoon, from the nurse that my blood work was inconsistent with menopause. So, the cause of my 5 week period is a mystery. I have a feeling that she’s going to still want to do a hysterectomy because I have a really bad uterine prolapse. Ah, womanly issues are so much fun! 🙂 Thank you for your well wishes! xx

    1. Thank you! I am feeling better and have an appointment scheduled on Monday to go over the tests and schedule my surgery. I’m feeling much more at peace with the situation. I’ll take a virtual hug! 🙂

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