I just got the call from my doctor’s office that my endometrial biopsy was normal! Yay!! The ultrasound that I had yesterday, was also void of anything horrible, other than an ovarian cyst, which nicely explains the pain in my lower left quadrant that I’ve been having. The good news is, that it should resolve itself. Now with no signs of cancer, I’m just waiting on my surgery scheduling and the results of the blood work that I had last Thursday to measure my hormone levels. I’m more than certain that my hormones are fully off track. I spent all day yesterday fighting back tears and finally allowed the dam to break once my husband got home. This is so, so, so not like me, but everything, including sentimental television commercials, has me feeling sappy and weepy.
Today, I’m seemingly recovered from my sadness, but am punished with swollen eyes and a slight headache that always seems to accompany crying. My husband IS, without a doubt, the sweetest, most loving man on the planet. He took me for a drive in “the country” (meaning some back roads in our suburban sprawl) while I boo-hooed about everything from missing my mother to wanting massive quantities of frozen yogurt, to being frustrated with where I am in life. Like I said, this isn’t like me. I’m so often the comforter, not the one needing comfort.
Luckily, the sun, my best girlfriend, and the pool are beckoning me today, as is the possibility of visiting Starbucks with her. It’s difficult to be melancholy knowing that I’m fortunate enough to have such good things in my life. Yet, I still wish that mid-life for women just consisted only of the undying urge to buy a sports car, get a toupee/wig, and flirt with younger guys–instead of menopause! Trouble is, I’m far from balding, I love my husband, and I’ve never been taught to drive a manual transmission!!
Hope everyone has a sunny, gorgeous day!